She was humbled as she realized just how many plans she had made for her life that God had changed. One by one she had made them, one by one He had torn them down. Even the ones she had been sure she had made during her closest moments with God and within His will were being torn away right in front of her. Or were they? God was feeling further away than He had before...were her plans changing the further she got from God? Was she really growing distant from God, or was it just a feeling? She still prayed, she still attended church every Sunday, she had amazing Christian friends, she spent time in the Word. Maybe not as often as she should, but still, she was spending time in the Word. The Word told her in the Psalms that God would give her the desires of her heart. What if she didn't know what she wanted? She wanted to be in God's will. Whether that meant marriage or singleness, graduate school or never finishing college, a successful career in the states or life as a missionary overseas, or whatever major she chose...she didn't want to find herself outside of God's will. It was just way too scary of a place to find herself.

God, am I making the right decision? Making one more mistake could really cost me this time...